This is my first post in my fancy, new blog…but not my first rodeo. I’ve been keeping a journal for years – and have had several blogs in the past. I consider myself a fairly good writer, and try to keep my blogs interesting.
Why is this go round different from the past? Well, for one thing I am keeping this 100% public. As I update, I’ll be posting links to my Facebook – and keeping my good friends and coworkers in the loop as well. I think the kick in the ass I need is 1005 accountability. No more hiding!
So, I’m on a journey to shrink myself from my current weight to a healthy,’ normal’ weight – and I’ll be using this blog as one of my tools. I plan to post about food dilemmas, exercising encounters, weight loss success’ (and the failures too!) as well as anything I find interesting or amusing along the way.
So, the disclaimer part: I’m no bullshit. I swear sometimes (ok, a lot in person). I make mistakes. I’m not perfect. I’m also extremely conversational and usually sarcastic…. hope you’re up for the ride! 🙂
So, as of today I am 28 yrs old (late twenties…aaah!) and at 5’4″ I weigh 385 pounds. Yup, I said it. Aloud (well, online). 385 pounds. It’s insane, and I need to get it under control.
I could sit here and make excuses, but I won’t waste your time or mine. I’m fat. Period. I used to be fatter – in January 2010 I weighed my highest to date- 425 pounds. I went balls to the wall’ for the first few months…then slowly but surely, I lost interest with diet and exercise. So, I am down 39 pounds from my heaviest ever (which is a small victory in itself) and I am back on track.
Let’s be honest – no one actually ENJOYS dieting, right? Nope. So, how am I going to make things different this time around? I’m not doing it. No dieting! Oh sure, I’ll write down my food (little bites add up!) and I’ll be making sure to keep myself in check when it comes to snacking and treats. But, as of today I am not dieting. A “diet” implies short term…and I want a lifestyle change. Hokey, I know.
Will I be exercising? Hell to the yea! The best I’ve ever felt is when I was going to the gym 4 days a week and bellydancing once a week. I see your look of shock…bellydancing?! Yup, it’s true. I fell in love with the dance 6 years ago (when I weighed 330) and haven’t let my weight stop me from dancing (and performing!). Now, before you get the wrong idea – bellydancers are not strippers, our clothes stay on! Bellydance is a wonderful art form that comes in all shapes, sizes, colors and flavors and on the subject of “bellies’, I personally chose not to show my belly (though there are plus-sized dancers who do!). Anyways, tangents aside – my current plan is to exercise in the gym 4 days a week, spend 2 days a week working on bellydance or a DVD from my collection (hundreds, literally HUNDREDS!) and allow myself 1 day of rest. It might sound hardcore – but it’s what I think I need….it might be modified in the future!
Since 2004 I would guesstimate I have lost and gained the same 100 pounds about 5 times. Pretty insane. I do really good, then I get sick/it gets tough/I give up. Lather, rinse, repeat. This time I really hope to stick with it, and succeed. There are so many things I miss out on in life by being so overweight…and frankly, if I don’t change them at 28 – there’s a chance I won’t live to see 48. That scary thought is propelling me to make changes and turn my life around.
I’ll be eating healthier – making choices that will keep me strong and help me shed pounds…and I’ll be exercising. A lot! Oh, and I’ll be blogging all about it.
So, there you have it. I’m fat. I’m going to work on being less fat – and I hope you’ll share my journey with me – and maybe we can learn from each other along the way!
Oh, and I will be weighing myself once a week and sharing the results here. I’m also going to take measurements- a fitness-savvy friend of mine says ‘Inches add up!”. So, I’ll be monitoring my progress 2 ways.
More updates soon!