It’s funny how much you eat when you’re not really hungry….and not really paying attention. Sunday was a tough day emotionally for me, and I found myself “not really hungry” but eating. A granola bar here – a 90 calorie Snickers ice cream bar there (OMG heaven!)….a handful of Popchips…a few bites of yogurt. When I sat down to record it all on SparkPeople I was astonished.
1756 calories?! How the hell did someone who WASN’T hungry eat that much?!?! Insanity!
Just goes to show…this is how easily you can pack on pounds when you’re not recording everything that goes in your mouth! Like I mentioned, it was a tough day emotionally and my comfort is usually found in food. I was recording all my calories not because I was being a good doobie…no no, I was contemplating a peanut butter shake – and figured I was WAY under my calories for the day so why not?! WRONG! Wrong wrong wrong! Not only was I at my calorie limit….but I know better than rewarding a tough day with food! Dammit, why is food so easy accessible…and so soothing?
So, let’s say I had eaten that delicious PB shake. I’d be 500 calories over my goal for the day. If I went over my 500 calories every day this week…I’d be 3500 calories over. 3500 calories = 1 pound. So, rather than LOSING weight, I’d gain. Insane! All that hard work, down the drain because I can’t keep my emotions in check without food.
So, I guess I’m partially to the root of my problem. Food = comfort. Bad day? Ice cream. Fight with a loved one? Cookies. Feeling “fat”? Cupcake. It’s funny that the way I make myself feel better about being fat is eating something to make me…more fat! God, where’s the logic in THAT?! Reading it in black and white just makes me laugh at how foolish it actually is! 🙂
So, I know all the things you should do when you want to emotionally eat: exercise, call a friend, take a walk, read a book…blah blah. Sometimes, the rational part of my brain just won’t kick in. Maybe I need to take up knitting….if your hands are occupied, you can’t eat! Right? We’ll see about that, I’m not sure I have time or space for another hobby!
I can see now that I went off course previously when I ate something I wasn’t proud of or ate more of something than I know I should. When I’m disappointed I don’t want to write things down. Who wants to relive their failures? No one. In order for this venture to be different from my past, I’m going to have to get uncomfortable. I’m going to have to write down my mistakes, and be honest about where I derailed in my eating during any given day. That’s part of real life – just not a glamorous part! No one ever talks about the non-fabulous aspects to losing weight and getting healthy. I guess “Here’s A List of my Dieting Failures” wouldn’t make a great novel, eh?
I’m leaving you with a question – what is your favorite healthy snack? I’d love to incorporate more into my routine. Currently I’m munching on grapes, cherries, greek yogurt, and salty n’ sweet peanut granola bars – so any variety you can suggest would be great!
P.S.- I’m a huge fan of pictures w/ my “stories” – so I’ll be adding pix to my blog posts. Today is no cookies for comfort!