Weekend was split. Saturday was amazing, Sunday was terrible. I did get some great workouts in, which makes me happy. However, on Friday I had my first nasty “anonymous” blog comment. It was from someone I don’t actually know – but we have mutual friends. Rather than taking what he said with a grain of salt, I let it bug the heck out of me until this morning. I complained to work friends, I questioned whether or not I should be putting my life out there for the world to critique and I thought of 52 comebacks for the offending ‘db’ (you can pretend like that stands for database….but you know what it really means!). 🙂
Yesterday morning I finally accepted that not everyone is going to love me, or my writing. Not everyone is going to enjoy reading this – and that’s fine. As I said in a previous post; if you don’t want to hear my weight-loss babble then drive on. So, I’m acknowledging the comment here, but I’m decidedly not responding directly to the ‘db’ (though I did think of some priceless comebacks!). Stupid people are just not worth my time.
I’ve been slacking on my exercise, I need to kick my own ass into high gear, I have a weigh-in on Friday!
For years I have been told (like a lot of cute, fat girls) that I have “such a pretty face”. While the sentiment is nice…there is so much more that comes along with this statement. There’s also a book that took the comment and changed it to “Such a Pretty Fat”. The book is “meh”, but more on that another time. I never believed I was pretty until I was 24 or so, up until then I thought it was just one of those things people say. I think learning to love yourself goes a long way to accepting compliments. When you don’t feel good on the inside, it’s hard to love what’s on the outside.
When someone says you have a pretty face- they can mean a few things. Either they are honestly giving you a compliment, they are implying the rest of you ISN’T pretty or they are going to follow it up with: “but you’d be even prettier if you lost all the weight!”. No one wants to be reminded of their shortcomings. So, the phrase is a tricky one, in my book.
However, sometimes the Universe puts you someplace so you can learn a lesson. This morning I was on a work call at home, and didn’t leave @ my normal time. I ended up catching the beginning of the Rachel Ra y show and on it was a girl who’s face had been destroyed by a gunshot. She had no face, but doctors had made prosthetic eyes/nose and she actually looked very pretty. I felt so awful for bitching about my “pretty face / fat ass” when this poor girl didn’t even have a face period! So, next time someone tells me “You have a such a pretty face!” – I won’t assume they are thinking “and such a fat ass!” – I will smile, accept the compliment and think about Chrissy Steltz.
Anyways, I’ve been avoiding posting many pictures (past the one I love on the home page) so I figured now is as good a time as any! Here I am, with captions. Note: when you have a “pretty face” you rarely let full body pics be taken! 🙂