For six years I have had fake nails. First acrylics, then recently gel overlay. Somehow these fake nails helped me feel pretty. In my head, having highlighted hair, nicely done makeup and manicured nails (even if they were fake) made me more attractive….it helped hide my fat. Some people go baggy and big…I went pretty and put together.
Wednesday I decided to give up my fake nails. They’re costly – annoying when they break and all together a bit of a pain in the ass. Going “au natural” has made me wonder what other things I have held onto to help mask my insecurity over my weight. I’m not sure…but it’s worth pondering. Here are pictures of my pretty nails before and after.
It doesn’t look so bad polished…but it’s a big change for sure!
This weekend is jam-packed and once again I will need to schedule some serious some workouts in if I want to stay on track. I am happy to say I got 3 workouts with weight-circuits and did 2 kickass cardio sessions this past week. I have also been on the elliptical for 7 whole minutes straight! Hooray! I still do not love the machine, but we’re making peace…. 🙂
So – you’re all dying to hear my weigh-in right? Yeah, I was too….until I stepped on the scale and it said 360. AGAIN. This is the 3rd week at this weight! I don’t understand how I could be working out this hard, eating the perfect number of calories and not losing weight?!?!?!
On the plus-side my clothes are noticeably baggy. My favorite dress pants are no longer wearable b/c they’re just too big ~ and my favorite jeans are loose. I feel like I’m losing inches but not poundage. I guess that’s possible right?? ::shrug:: I’m frustrated, I can’t lie. I think starting next week I need to publicize my food logs and have you all chime in if you see an issue that could be preventing me from dropping weight. I’m just at a bit of a loss.
My pal Alexis and I talked about the shitty side of weight-loss….like the times when you’re body doesn’t show the progress you know you’ve made. Today is one of those times. I am visibly smaller – and yet that scale WILL NOT budge. (Asshole scale).
Onward and upwards – here’s to more success on the scale next week ~ and rocking more new pictures!