Sparkly & Slimming….a Weight Loss Blog

Samantha's journey to slim down, while remaining sparkly!

Negativity, next steps and “now”….


First and foremost thank you all so much for the comments, emails and love after my mini-meltdown last week. It really means a lot to me to have so many wonderful people in my life (and in my corner) who support me and want to see me succeed! You guys are the best!

Second,  I feel compelled to say this because I think my frustration with my body and my weight was taken out of context by some. I love barre n9ne – but I am not sponsored by them nor am I affiliated with them in any role other than as a paying client. I buy classes or challenge packs just like everyone else who attends. When I say I’m upset that I’m coming 5 times a week and not seeing a difference I am NOT saying “barre doesn’t work”.  It is a great form of exercise with great people, otherwise I wouldn’t patronize it. That said, I cannot give it or anything sole credit for my failure or success. At the end of the day I am responsible for my body. My food intake, my steps, my exercise are all dependent on me and my level of effort at that given moment. I’ve hit a plateau and barre isn’t “to blame”. I hope that’s clear. I will still be enjoying barre workouts at barre n9ne as a tool during this journey, I will just be supplementing it with some tweaks (see below).

Moving on I have accepted where I am (which I think is one of the hardest parts of this whole journey – accepting your state of mind/body at a moment in time…. especially when it’s not where you wanted to be or thought you’d be). Being jealous of people around me isn’t going to get me where I need to be. Neither is dwelling. Lying to myself only placate my mind, it doesn’t help my body or my spirit.

As Baz Lurhmann once said:

Don’t waste your time on jealousy;
Sometimes you’re ahead,
Sometimes You’re behind.
The race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.

In the end I am only accountable to myself and only I have to live with myself and my decisions. If I did give up I would disappoint a bunch of you – but I would devastate me. I didn’t come this far only to turn back now. I’m gotten over the hardest part! I lost my first 100 pounds, I’ve changed my lifestyle – now I just need to tweak in order to keep moving in the right direction. Fall down 7 times, get up eight.

So what is my new plan?

4 times a week: barre classes (3 classes of either TFFR, method, barre fusion or cardio and 1 class of legs/arms/mat fusion/lean and tone). I really want to pump up the barre. I think that will be where I see the most “bang for my buck” if you will.

2 days a week of circuit training + cardio at the gym. Once upon a time I had a personal trainer who advocated a 20 mins cardio, 20 min circuit, 20 min cardio set. I need to add that back in again.

2 days a week of pure cardio (trying ZUMBA! today with Stefanie!  ~ also lined up to try CrossFit and spinning. I’ll give anything that gets my heart rate up a go!)

I’m ready to kick it up. I know the next 30 days are going to be killer (especially with the aforementioned travel thrown in) but ya know what? That’s life! Life is never going to be this perfect linear progression. There will be hiccups and setbacks and changes, it’s not always going to work out as I plan.

Speaking of perfect, I wrote my last post and never even realized I used the word “perfect“. There is no such thing. My mom used to always joke “There was only one perfect person and they crucified him”. Region aside, NO ONE is perfect. I can’t expect that of myself. Not in work, not in fitness not in life. Life is not perfect.

I’m committed to kicking ass the next 30 days ~ so committed that I made myself a calendar inside Gmail with the aforementioned schedule.

In addition I will be eating my number + sticking to 10,000 steps a day. I sleep better and FEEL better when I get those steps in. Why stop a good thing!? I’m also excited  because for the next 30 days I have NO PAGER for work. Wooo! I will mot likely resume my responsibility in September – but this gives me a full 30 days to dedicate to myself after hours. I’m excited to see how it goes.

That’s where I am. Thank you all again for being real with me – for sharing your missteps and setbacks, it’s nice to know I’m not alone! 🙂

A good reminder:  You have to have a setback in order to have a comeback….otherwise you settle in your setback.

 

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Getting in the Groove!


Happy Friday Everyone!

It was a good week overall ~ but I have to say…it’s hard to get in the groove and balance exercise, healthy eating and life.  It’s something you have to work at every day – not just when it’s convenient! So, I’ve come up with some new ways to keep myself on track, motivated and succeeding.

Weigh-in first today – down 2 pounds. 368. Normally I would bitch and moan about 2 pounds- but not this time. I own every single OUNCE of that 2 pounds! 🙂  This also means I am in the 360’s! For those of you keeping tracking @ home, my goal is 360 by Oct 1st. So, the next 2 weeks need to be *hardcore*.

Wanna hear about my week? Oh good…I was gonna tell you anyways! 😉

Food – I like logging things online through SparkPeople.com ….but I realized this week that I don’t log anything after dinner, and RARELY do I log on the weekends (I don’t go on my laptop unless I am on call). So, I got myself a paper tracking notebook (the one Memie recommended!). I think that should help. Seeing what you’ve eaten in black and white in undeniable.I also realized I am overdosing on coffee again – and need to cut back. Not only the cost, but the caffeine isn’t good for me. I’m going to brew coffee this weekend, make coffee cubes and get back to making my own coffee for the morning – no more coffee all day! Not only does it taste better, but it’s all around just better for me. I was watching the Rachel Ray show yesterday morning and she had a doctor on who said if you’re going to have some decadent – like a cheeseburger – it needs to be 10% of the time balanced with your healthy eating the other 90% of the time. Good reminder!

Exercise – Walking in the graveyard was going great…but I missed that “strong” feeling I had 2 yrs ago when I was going to the gym regularly. I realized, to be truly successful I need people to help me and I need to keep mixing it up. I’ve rejoined my old gym (at a discounted rate! Hooray!) and now I have the ability to work out w/ my mom, brother or dad (when I can con him into going!). I also will have a solution for my “what do I do when it’s snowing all winter?”. Same thing I did before- get my ASS to the gym! Boom – problem solved! I can do cardio days of walking/elliptical/biking or I can do weight training circuits which I really enjoy…Yes, I see your surprised face – I know. Me? At a gym? Hell yes. I loved this gym when I first started…then I got in my own way and stopped going. Not this time! I’m going to bore you all w/ a chart of my circuits next week. 😉

All in all, I’m feeling really accomplished. I’m not giving up (even though some days I really want to) and while I might not be able to please everyone in my life, I’m doing my best to work towards my goal of being healthy. Being fat is easy, getting healthy is hard work – and I need to remind myself of that each day. If it was each, obesity wouldn’t be such an epidemic in this country!

On the agenda for this weekend: reaching 9000 steps (I can SO do this…I know I can!), getting to the gym twice, co-hosting a belly dance fundraiser for a friend whose house was lost in a fire (so sad!) and spending time with my family. Busy weekend! 🙂

What healthy things are *you* doing this weekend? Tell me all about it!

XO
*S

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